smoking won't stop dreaming

in my dreams, we meet outside ice cream stores over a banjo
we talk about toilet seats until my cigarette (cigarette?) is ash

in life, friends say, guess who i saw in a serious voice
and i say your name and they say i've never met that schmuck
i'm talking about the schmuck that just left you

and i say how i haven't noticed this breakup
my heart is still slinged in summer popsicle sticks

in my dreams you suck the tits out of my toes
like a sticky sugar cone, and everything is normal, open even.

really?

jamba juice pajama jeans

marks the spot

nights are donated in the 

in between of your fingers

i have willed the angels, 

i don’t know how

they lose me in your cosmic vibrations

and pluck me through

the ho hum much ado

and into something

far more comfortable

crazy ass savage back slash more damage

she was always in love
she she never knew it she
it was more of a detour

If im the pane
And you, a delta
I would make sure to
Make etches all your brooks
To a delta drop
And hold you there

knuckle crest

pussy cat so big
is a hole area rug

oh goog

how to cut succulents for growing cuttings
how to delete facebook
how to download youtube videos
how to make french toast
how to last longer in bed

my mother is a soldier for vitality
she sees my grandfather takes his pills
does the laundry, rolls his toes

i get calls from her too:
"hi honey, just making sure
you haven't killed yourself.
hang in there."

my little brother is benign
and thoughtful enough to let her rest
wading through syringes and rubik's cubes alone

the first time she heard your name in fifty seven days
it was a porch of thirty blue stepped
she raced up to turn the shiny things she left
into the naturally neutral general

another other one

why did my
phone save you from
utter oblivion?

i never knew i
had a favorite section
save from in
the place you vacated

she opened her chest
and found things to be
exactly as they were
just dustier

before the xanax kicks in

you should know i always never loved
i always, always love but then i would
always want the never either or never want
the always and forever meant i could never
say always just only just but rather
an always always forever everyone
fucking crying loving the endless always
in a big white room we all fall asleep